Confirmed

Not that I needed it, as my period started today progesterone or no progesterone, along with some of the worst cramps ever - not even currently quelled with Tylenol. Ugh. At least my ring is pretty. :-)

Major Spotting

Just like that, I'm spotting like nobody's business and my dream of having a baby in 2010 or before I'm 29 go up in smoke. And with my husband being laid off, who knows how long before we can even try again? Out of ten cycles, I've only had five ovulations. And I guess that the 20% worked, it just ended in a loss and I'd have to go through another five cycles to have any hope. Part of me just doesn't want to do this anymore because it is so hard, every time, no exceptions. I do not know what I will do if June comes and I am still not pregnant. I can't even think about it right now.

BFN

on 10dpiui, so I suppose yesterday was all trigger or something. Trying to keep hope alive over here.

Nobody get too excited...

...but I got a BFP this morning! I know it is only 9 days past my IUI and 11 past the trigger, which is extremely early and I could conceiveably still be getting trigger, but I did it anyway. My husband is going out of town over the date of our first beta and we agreed I would tell him the results in person. I don't know what possessed me to take one this morning, we had a left over FRER digital from the miscarriage adventure and I took it. I had to pee so badly this morning so I got up super early and could not wait for it to tell me no so I could go back to my warm bed instead of the cold bathroom. Instead it said yes!

I'm trying not to get too excited as I do not want a repeat of last time, but it looks like for good or for ill I'm on the HPT rollercoaster ride.

Group B Strep

From what Dr. Google tells me, women are usually tested for Group B Strep in the 35-37 week of their pregnancy. I will be tested on Tuesday because my husband's semen analysis from the IUI came back positive for Group B Strep. I have gone from fervently praying to be pregnant to wondering if that is what I should be hoping for (though I know the chances of this hurting my hypothetical baby are pretty rare.)

They found "round cells" in his semen which can indicate immature sperm or white blood cells. It turns out these were white blood cells and the count was higher than they would like, so they ran a culture. It was positive for Group B Strep. So now I have to have a culture (and a pap since I'm overdue) next Tuesday in addition to my long-awaited pregnancy test (it's only 12 days after the IUI, does that seem early to anyone else?)

Ring

We have been looking for an opal ring for me to commemerate Poppyseed, since opal is an October birthstone. We decided to go for an October birthstone as opposed to June (the EDD) because that's when we knew Poppyseed and loved him/her and the sum total of his/her existence. We also wanted sidestones that were blue sapphires and not diamonds because diamonds tend to wash out an opal's fire (and I just love blue sapphires). Anyway, this unique combination has been awhile in the making. We were going to get a custom made ring here in town but they wanted to charge us twice what we wanted to spend because it was a "custom" piece, so we decided not to do it (this was back in February). But when we were on vacation last week we found a great little ring and they agreed to change the diamonds for sapphires and charge us the same price. Awesome. And since they had to ship it to us out of state, we wouldn't have to pay sales tax. More awesome. (And yes, I will totally post a picture once we have said ring.)

It was going to take some time to do the custom work so we couldn't have it until Wednesday this week. Fine, no problem, we weren't in any big rush. Well I got a call today that the sapphires just weren't quite right and they would have it fixed by Friday, but because they have a policy to not ship jewelry over weekends (theft hazard) we would get the ring next Tuesday ... just in time for my first beta on this cycle.

I just can't tell whether this is a good sign or a bad sign.

IUI #3

Hi everyone! I know you've been wondering where I am, because it took nineteen days of follistim plus menopur plus three out of town monitoring appointments (oh the nightmares) in order to be FINALLY ready to trigger and then today I had an IUI. My little main follicle was super slow, but finally got there! Now we wait, doing a progesterone test next Tuesday and a pregnancy test the Tuesday after that. I am hoping against hope for a little Easter BFP.

This time my husband has good feelings, and so do my doctor and my mother. I had excellent cervical mucus this time, which isn't something I've had before, so good on that. The only thing was at the IUI, my follicle hadn't dropped quite yet, but the technician said that it looked "fuzzy" and that this was a good thing and meant it was getting ready to drop. I will have sex the next couple of nights because I'm just too wary not to do so.