Back on Plan

So no cysts when I went in, which is a good thing. My period took the full two weeks to start even though I had the shot instead of the pills - stupid body, never doing what it is supposed to be doing.

Now I am on the Follistim train again - hoping that being gone next weekend for work isn't going to put a crimp in my style. I am not looking for a monitoring place while I am gone either - they will have to let me go or suffer the consequences.

Also hoping we will do the IUI before spring break and I can just chill a bit. It's a little scary to me that if this cycle doesn't work out that we are looking at some type of surgery for me.

One of my best friends is due at the beginning of July whereas I was due at the end of June. It's sad but we don't talk much about it - it's hard to talk because she's doing missionary work in Africa but I still miss her and want to talk. I finally got a box and put the few things I had set aside for Poppyseed in there. 

This post is really stream of conscious-y and I apologize.

Hamsters can get KTFU, but not me

My husband can knock up hamsters! In other words although his morphology is still a little wonky, he did really well on this test. 100% of the eggs were penetrated and they look for like 14 sperm/egg but he had over 32 sperm/egg. This is great! We can do another round of injectibles.

On the other hand, surgery time for me. We've pretty much decided if I have no cysts when I go in for baseline testing we will do another round of injectibles/IUI and if that doesn't work then we'll do the surgery. If I still have major cysts, then we will go ahead and do the surgery this time around.

I know it's two posts in one day, but when stuff happens, it happens.

Surgery? IVF? I don't know.

I'm just at a loss right now. I got a progesterone in oil shot on Monday to start my period, but several other things are going on.

If my cysts persist (funny wording, that) and if we want to do another IUI as opposed to IVF then the doctor wants to do a laproscopy/hysteroscopy to take a look at my insides. This is outpatient surgery but involves going all the way under and being out of commission for a few days. She says they usually do it on a Friday and then you can go back to work by next Wednesday. Well that involves me missing some classes and I have to get subs and then teach sitting down when I do come back and BLARGH to all of that. Plus we don't know if that will do us any good.

My husband also went in on Monday to do a sperm penetration assay test, or the hamster test. If that goes well, then we can do some more IUI before IVF but if it's abnormal then the doctor suggests we just skip to IVF and potentially IVF with ICSI (which I'll explain more later if I have to do so). If we are pressed into this route I won't have to have surgery but we will have to do the IVF part.

And you guys? I'm just not ready in my heart for IVF. To me that seems like the "big guns" more so than anything else and I will go there if I must but I'm not ready for it yet. Even if that means I may have to have surgery. I just wish I knew the right answer to all of this.